On my first day of internship, in a seminar, my boss said, “Man is a creature of habit but I am a creature of the in-habit!” What he meant to say was that he loves change, he cannot stick to routines and even two days consecutively he cannot wake up at the same time in the morning! At this point in the seminar, I actually wanted to shout “Me too, me too!”
Honestly, I love change. I love dynamics. I do not like static and I cannot do a desk job ever! I hate routines! I am not saying that discipline is wrong – things should be done in moderation. I am not a stickler, nor am I a slob. But I cannot make my life predictable by following a routine.
I need to find that one thing I am very particular about though. I can ‘let go’ easily. I wish that was the same case with emotions though. I do wear my heart on my sleeve and more often than not, have gotten hurt. I do not wish to get hurt, so I am learning the art of detachment from a dear friend! (Paradox) :-P
I need to start working on SOP. It’s going to be one laborious task, but it’s something I have to get done, provided I’m still applying. I decided the other day that I will try for MIS. Chuck CS. Then while talking to a friend, I realized, I am going to be spending crazy loads of money to do my Master’s and I don’t even know what I want to do in life. Do I want CS? MIS? MBA? (I know MBA ain’t it coz I want work ex before I do an MBA) Doesn’t it make more sense to wait for a year or two before jumping the gun? That way, I’ll hopefully know what I want to do, and I will have clarity about what I like and what I do not.
Btw, I turned 21 two days back. I really don't feel any change coz the way I look at things completely changed this year - that helped me grow wiser (maybe I am not the wisest person around) and stronger and of course - grow up!
I felt happy today, and I don't know why. Maybe that's why I was so happy. I don't need a reason. I know things will be okay and I will hope and pray that they do soon enough.
As all know, Hope IS a good thing! :)
5 comments:
a relatively long post..i hardly know anyone who puts out his/her heart on his/her blog.you do it so easily and beautifully, it amazes me. i see a LOT of similarities in our thought process. change is good, it keeps you on your toes too, and life is too short to rust yourself. Letting go is never easy and the process is never well defined. you may never realize when you had that one moment of moving on..and you are suddenly happy. hope this happiness lasts..
happy belated b'day
and all the bestest!!
The fine art of detachment eh? Not an easy task for one who wears her heart on her sleeve
hope is a good thing, maybe the best of things...watch shawshank again! well dynamics is good...helps to keep life all spiced up...though i dont like it change is inevitable...you can let go easily? hmm thats news :P...and whos teaching you detachment?
change is what keeps me going too...n desk jobs-look like a complete career spoiler to me! agred on the fact on wht to do nxt..its nvr so easy to decide n ppl who knw wht they want amaze me..its nice to be so honest in a post...
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